Sir Bob Geldof has revealed the untimely death of his daughter Peaches is still incomprehensible to him, even though he half-expected it.
Peaches died aged 25 from a heroin overdose last year, 14 years after her mother Paula Yates also died from a heroin overdose.
“Part of me kind of half-expected [it with] Peaches, to be honest with you, the way she was carrying on, there’s nothing you can do about it,” Geldof told Miriam O’Callaghan on RTE Radio 1.
“But she is the one who is with me every second of the day and she is the one who bangs into my consciousness at any moment, especially in any down moment … where I’m not doing something. She’s very present,” he said.
Geldof said her death is still incomprehensible.
“This thing of being forever 25, in my head, that’s unbearable, simply because of that cliche – you’re not supposed to see your children die.”
The Boomtown Rats singer said songwriting and performing on stage is cathartic.
“I feel afterwards light, literally light. My head is clear, there’s no ache, there’s no gut sadness,” he said.
Geldof also spoke about the untimely death of two other women in his life – his mother and his estranged wife Paula Yates.
He was informed of Yates’ death while their daughter Pixie opened presents on her tenth birthday.
“I didn’t know what to do when I got the phone call at 10.30 on a Saturday morning,” said Geldof.
“It was Pixie’s tenth birthday and the children were living with me because the situation was awful over at the other side,” he said.
Pixie was supposed to meet her mother later in the day.
“I said exactly what my father had said to me, I said, `Your Mum died last night.’ That was it,” said Geldof.
Geldof admits he was bereft when Yates left him for INXS frontman Michael Hutchence.
“The leaving was worse than the dying. I couldn’t understand it, I loved her profoundly and I didn’t understand then that love is not enough.”